Last night I only slept for about three hours. I went to bed around nine, but I tossed and turned and didn't fall asleep until well into the night. I knew today was coming, and I've been waiting for it with equal parts anticipation and dread. At 8:45 this morning, my divorce was finalized and I am no longer married to Finau.
As I reflect upon the last five years, while I can't say that I have absolutely no regrets, I can honestly say that the overwhelming emotion that I'm feeling today is gratitude. Although this is never the outcome one hopes for at the onset of a marriage, I'm grateful for the opportunity that I had to be Finau's wife. I'm grateful for the things that he taught me, the lessons I had to learn for myself while we were together, and most of all I'm grateful that because of him I was given the five greatest blessings of my life.
So, although today is a day tinged with sadness and some regret, it is also a day of great gratitude. And as I move forward, I will strive to look at the past with compassion and to the future with hope.